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A subscriber sent me the following kite:

“I’m drowning in this cold hopelessness
Consumed by my own brokenness
This unremitting force is pressing down on me pushing me under
But I’m so tired I’m can’t even utter… a word… for help

I’m suffocating in the darkness that is my own mind
And I’m looking so hard for that light but I’m confined
I just can’t find … relief
I’m lost at sea trying to stay afloat
But there are too many holes in the broken boat
That is me

I keep treading water but with no hope of rescue
While all I want is for someone to tell me YES YOU… matter
I feel like letting myself drown
But I can’t let all the people in my life down
So I have to wipe off this frown and put on a smile
But I’ve been dragged out to sea washed up on this isle … alone … and depressed

I drag myself out of bed
Out of my room
Out of my house
To the gym

And as the metal weights presses against me
I count the reps… 1….2…3
The weight tries to force me under but I persevere
I force my true self to reappear
And finally, all the pressure is relieved
And for one moment, my feelings are reprieved.”

And this was the note attached:

“This is my poem for you. We both have our struggles, and this encapsulates mine”

Thank you to all my subscribers… we all have own Journey to 30, 40 and infinity. I’m currently sitting in a Taco Bell drinking a Cinnabon coffee that the cashier so kindly gave to me for free, life is a lottery and I’m eternally grateful for the cards I have been delt. Today is a beautiful day - we should all be grateful to be alive.